The littlest things make me float with joy.
"I think I miss being in love, there an aspect, a part of me that isn't quite the same as it used to be. I miss the closeness that you can only ever feel with a single person at any one time. I don't believe that there is only one love for all of us out there I think that you can fall in love with anyone at any time, whether you've known them for a long time or just met them recently. Whether the are one of your best friends, an old friend, or someone you talked to for five minutes. Never rule out the possibility of falling for someone, its one of the most exhilarating things you can do during your life. Love is about trust, trusting someone absolutely with your entire life and no matter who that person is it will always be a gamble. Thank you for reminding me of that."
Ok so I've been saying for a little while that I wanted to expand on that point that I made a little while back. This time in my life seems like a really good time to do it.
Love is a lost art in my opinion. The hopeless romantics a dying breed. Love letters a thing of the past. Turning up at someone's door with a bunch of flowers and some puppy dog eyes would get you nothing but grief these days. Ok maybe its not such a bad thing that last one is gone but DAMN it sounds like a good idea, I'll have to remember it for later use.
So that last paragraph was probably a little harsh on society, romance definitely still exists its just a little more hard to come by then back in the days when one had to "court" a potential love. I've started with all this because I miss the little things that you get in a relationship, sure the physical aspect is missed a fair bit but there's something a bit more important then that. Every little action you do to tell that person that you love them is important, whether its a small motion that leads to awkwardly wrapping your legs together or a big gesture like turning up at their door with flowers and puppy dog eyes. These little gestures are what I miss more then anything else. The reason why they are what I miss is because every one of them tells the other person more then you could ever say with words. Wrapping your legs around each other could be saying " I don't ever want us not to be connected even if it means these awkward positions." The flowers and the puppy dog eyes could say " I missed you and you're worth this." However these are just speculation because these actions have an infinite amount of possible meanings. The people who do these little things and are open about how much they wanted to do it, these are the hopeless romantics I'm talking about. I think I'm forgetting to be one of them, I'm going to work on remembering that part of me, because I liked it.
Trust is one of those little things that is actually a huge thing, no one ever mentions trust when they are talking about falling in love with someone but isn't that all it is? Just that one step more towards one of the people you trust more then anyone? One of those people who you would put everything on the line for just because you couldn't envisage not trusting them? Isn't falling in love just the next step along?
SO while I know at the moment I should be having some "Barney Time" (How I Met Your Mother) I find it difficult to be that guy who just picks up random girls. Is that weird? Do I fail as a teenage boy if the only people I want to be with are ones I actually care about? However, despite this view, slaps are still on.
I've told a few people recently that love is like gambling and I really enjoy the comparison. Sure the odds are huge and the amount that could go wrong is massive but dammit I'm willing to play the hand life dealt me with a few risks, what would be the fun otherwise? So yea, its a gamble, but if it pays off then you've won a jackpot. So, do you feel lucky?
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