Dear metro...sigh. On a brighter note thank you train blackouts

What probably should have been a really awful day turned out to be one of the most interesting I've had in a while! Rolling train blackouts meant that I ended up hitch hiking part of the way to school, a surprisingly enjoyable experience.

Things I learnt from Hitch Hiking:
1. Everyone who agrees to pick you up in a car is not going to kidnap and kill you.
2. People are actually very nice despite the opinions some may have of the general community.
3. Flattery is a fantastic tool.
4. Hitch Hiking makes a great story.
5. I've found how I'm going to get around Europe.
And a small add on that wasn't actually directly learnt from the hitch hiking but was related to this particular day.
6. V-Line trains are really quite comfortable.

Other things that i have recently learnt
1. This looks hilarious;


2. above video is fake :(

3. I should stop putting myself down every time I make a small mistake.

4. There are certain people who are just really not my friends, but its better to continue acting friendly towards them as it avoids unnecessary conflict.

5. That some conflicts are just unnecessary!

6. I think I miss being in love, there an aspect, a part of me that isn't quite the same as it used to be. I miss the closeness that you can only ever feel with a single person at any one time. I don't believe that there is only one love for all of us out there I think that you can fall in love with anyone at any time, whether you've known them for a long time or just met them recently. Whether the are one of your best friends, an old friend, or someone you talked to for five minutes. Never rule out the possibility of falling for someone, its one of the most exhilarating things you can do during your life. Love is about trust, trusting someone absolutely with your entire life and no matter who that person is it will always be a gamble. Thank you for reminding me of that.

7. In regards to the previous point, those I have discussed it with are still to slap me for the reasons we discussed.


That's all for now folks. I've taken the pictures out of my blogging as I didn't think they were adding much to it. Let me know what you think.

Is this how we learn?

What was I meant to do? Don't leave them alone...Is shock that powerful? And is it really that helpful to stay close to someone who still not going to talk to you anyway?


Don't get me wrong I don't have a bad relationship with any member of my family. I love each and every one of them! They are my family and the only people who are constantly stuck with me. But that doesn't mean I'm necessarily ACTUALLY close to them! Especially my dad, I'm not close with my dad and quite frankly that's upsetting, but I came to terms with that suck a long time ago!


So what does this mean? When someone who is this close to you, but not close at all, suffers; what can you do? How much can you help?


These last two weeks have been wonderful! I've grown so close to the people who really matter and care about me! I don't know what I've ever done to deserve the care that these wonderful people all give me. I just hope I don't screw it up. Most importantly about these last two weeks they've helped dispel the feelings that I am a horrible person. MY faith in myself has grown again and that person that I really like is continuing to emerge, more and more with every day. Thank you, once again to those people who care about me, I will always strive to show that same care and compassion for you.




And now this, I made a poor decision, I didn't stick by someone who needed it. This does not bother me as much as it probably should, because the person who made the decision to leave is the person I am rapidly shedding. I won't ever make that mistake again. To be there, for those who need you to be, that is the most important thing.






Is it bad that I, more then occasionally, place my friends above my family? Looking back, in wonderful hindsight, I realise that if it had been someone else, say A or C or A (I hope they know who they are), I would've stuck by them. I would've cancelled everything to ensure their well-being. Am I so accustomed to my father that I just don't think that he can hurt? Or that he can need my help?


My family are important to me, but I exist happily independent of them. Is that even possible? They are a huge part of my life but I could survive if anything caused me to be away from them. If I had realised this at an earlier time in my life i would've have been upset about it. For now I can only accept it, this is a relationship that is set and I will live with it.

I will do better next time. No matter who it is.